Hey there. I'm Pam and if you've come for my soul, you're too late.Enjoy the inner workings of my mind. And please, enjoy life's lemons
Maybe it’s not exactly a rant, more of expressing. You ever just feel completely lost? And have absolutely no idea what you’re doing? Because that’s me right now. I can’t shake this feeling of being totally faceless. Just another shape in the crowd full of literally billions. But I have no idea on how to become more than just a shape. What are my talents? What do I love to do? Do I even have any talent? I sure as Hell haven’t found one yet. They tell you that it’s not work if you’re dong what you love. But what do I love? I wanted to be a baker for a while but gave that up because I didn’t think I was good enough. Then I wanted to be a wedding planner. But do people even use wedding planners anymore? Being an author would be great. But do I even have talent in writing? I want to do something that people would recognize. I want to do something that will make an audience happy. But what? I look at people like Chris Hardwick who created the “Nerdist Empire” from nothing and I feel so inferior. As much as I love him, sometimes I can’t make myself happy by looking at the stuff he’s done because he’s done so much. How does that even happen? I look at companies I love like Rooster Teeth and think: how does that even happen? How can you make something so great out of an idea? How do you even come up with an idea? They say that everything that can be done already has. But we all know that’s not true. And the second something newly popular arises, it’s “Why didn’t I think of that?” I want to know what I love. I want to have a talent. I want to not look at something great and feel horrible because I can’t do it. But can I? I DON’T KNOW. That’s the problem! And the next person who tells me that I’m young so I don’t have to figure out my life yet, can shove it up their ass. I don’t want to wait for my life to start. I want to start it now. I want to make something great out of an idea. Something I love. But how? And how do I even create an idea in the first place?
Chad: So what do you want?
Sonny: Some answers!
Chad: To what?
Sonny: (talking about Mackenzie Falls) To how it all ends! To how long it's gonna be before you ask the girl you're destined to be with.
Chad: I'm....not sure I can answer that.
Sonny: Aren't you in charge of your own destiny?
Chad: Uh, I guess.
Sonny: Then it's time to say enough! I mean, when two people are this right for each other there's only one thing to do.
Chad: How long have you felt this way?
Sonny: Just since yesterday. It hasn't been long, but it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Chad: I mean, I guess I feel the same way.
Sonny: Well then do something about it!
Chad: Okay, I will. Sonny will you go out with me?
*studio audience screams*